Nothing Last Forever

Nothing Last Forever

This is what I hold on to when my world turns dark.  Living with Depression, I get caught up in the dark.  I forget that the sun will shine again.

I feel as if darkness and light are in a battle inside my head and I am just standing on the sidelines waiting to see who wins.

I need to join the fight. Help the light destroy the dark.  I am frozen though.  It is a very long hard battle and I get so tired.  There are times  that I stop caring who will win.  There are even a few times that I secretly hope the dark wins.  Thankfully God steps in, wakes me up, and helps me to start cheering for the light again.

The day will come when I am strong enough to join the battle.  I have faith in that.

Nothing last forever.  The dark night will end.

God is with me during the dark, so I know that when the light does shine, it will shine brighter then I could have ever imagine.

The Bumpy Road

The Bumpy Road

Along our journey through life there are times we have a choice between taking the easy road or the bumpy road.

The easy road is smooth and flat without any hills and valleys There are not any potholes obstacles to dodge. There isn't a whole lot of scenery to look at. It's a safe road to travel

The bumpy road is a roller coaster ride of hills and valleys. There are many obstacles to dodge. It contains some scary turns. It's a dangerous road but the scenery is amazing.

The choice is yours.

Just Breathe

Just Breathe

It has been a while since I have written. It has been a ride. I am on antidepressants and they are working pretty good. Now the real work begins. After a few missteps, I finally figured out that I needed to slow down and breathe. I am now taking baby steps.

I have also decided to go to therapy. l need the tools to help me learn to live again.

I don't know how long it will take to get to my life, but Im ready for the journey

Living Mindfully with Bipolar Disorder

Living Mindfully with Bipolar Disorder

Stress is the main cause of the manic/depressive cycles in Bipolar Disorder. Living a life of Mindfulness is one of the best things someone with BD can do for themselves. Mindfulness teaches us to stay centered on the moment, concentrating on the present without thoughts or feelings about the past or the future. Worrying about the things that have or will happen creates undue stress about things in which you have no control over. This is important to someone with Bipolar Disorder. Stressing over the past or future can exasperate the disease. Staying within the present, and giving past thoughts and actions no meaning, enables us to live fully in the present. It keeps us grounded, which is what someone with BD needs to be.

Mindfulness teaches us to treat our thoughts with kindness. Notice them, but do not try to change or push them away. Except them for what they are and let them move along. Mindfulness can help with the racing thoughts of someone with BD by teachings us to acknowledge that the thoughts are there and treating them with kindness, without giving them any importance. They are not good or bad they are just simply thoughts and nothing more. One way to achieve this is by Mindful Meditation.

Mindful Breathing is the meditation that I use. Sitting in a quiet place, you close your eyes and concentrate on the breaths you take. The breath in and the breath out is all you notice. When thought pop into your head, bring your self back to the breaths in and the breaths out. Once you are able to master this without any thoughts coming to your mind, you will be able to take this with you anywhere when dealing with stressful situations or racing thoughts. This meditation keeps you grounded in the present and helps block out the racing thoughts.

When dealing with Bipolar Disorder, being able to control stress and control the thoughts in our head, is a huge step in treating this disease. The next time you start feeling out of control, remember to pay attention to the breath in and the breath out.

Two thoughts cannot coexist at the same time: if the clear light of mindfulness is present, there is no more room for mental twilight - Nyanaponika There